Regrets

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My regrets are eating me today. I'm not sure how to block them out. I've lost so much in the last few years, and all because I should have handled things differently. I try to console myself that I've tried to make amends, and to extend olive branches, but it isn't nearly enough to fill the hollowness inside me.

The people I miss are experiencing some of the most joyous days of their lives, and I'm not there to be their friend and to celebrate with them, and that truly makes me sad.

What do I do to cope? And how can I live with myself knowing all the happiness and friendship I've thrown away?

My emptiness and loneliness is my own fault.

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EmeralFairy's avatar
Something like this has happened to me before. Its hard to get over, and in a way, you can't really get over it. I would like to say, that in time you move on, but that depends on you. People and friends are a fickle thing. Its easier to leave someone when you can't stand them anymore (like if someone wants to 'change' who they are) then to just put up with them.

Its how you feel about this and what you did that makes who you are. Your friends don't define you, its your actions and emotions that make up you. If I learned anything from reading this is that no one is really alone. When your friends leave you, some is always to lend a helping hand.

BTW: Hope is not completely gone from your friends. You can still be friends with some of them. If you think that they were good people before, then some of them most likely are.

:hug: you can make it.